Daily Draw 01-09-2015

Daily Draw 01-09-2015

Small Lenormand

21 Mountain – obstacle, hindrance, burden, slowing-down

Something might be cumbersome or difficult to get around, an obstacle I might not have counted on causing issues. Need or good idea to slow down.

Great Lenormand

Lady – female querent, lover, woman

I might need to put myself in the foreground or take a step back – a healthy measure of self-confidence and humility might be worth striving for. Not putting myself front center in everything, but at the same time not totally forgetting about myself either.

Skat

Ace of Hearts * – outside house, neighborhood, another house/building, impersonal

A matter outside the house might arise that needs attention. Might learn of something that doesn’t effect me personally but still has importance of some sort.

Kipper

23 Courthouse – judgment, official business, institution

Might have to deal with an official or public matter/institution. Or, having to make a public/official announcement of sort? Feeling the need to make a decision.

Zigeuner

Sweetheart – female querent, lover, woman

Balance between self-awareness and self-confidence and humility and caring for others.

Tarot

Ace of Knives (Ace of Swords)

Decision, clarity of mind, common sense, need for clarification, logic, rationality. Might be a good idea to use my common sense and good judgment today in order to discern a matter or situation. Feeling clear-minded enough to make a sound decision.

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Daily Draw 01-08-2015

Small Lenormand

34 Fish – finances, money, subconscious, flow, liquid/alcohol, plenty

Money and/or financial situation might be a subject today. Going with the flow of events and how I and hubby are feeling.

ð Trying to get into the mood for a few things but not really feeling it so I’m been going pretty much with what my mood ‘strikes’ me with instead of forcing myself to do things I think I *should/need/ought* to do. Hubby been looking at a few things online but put them on the backburner til payday. Budget getting tight, so we need to be more cautious with spending.

Great Lenormand

2 of Spades – advice, secrets, acknowledging & learning from (life’s) lessons, change

It might be a good idea to heed someone’s advice or suggestion. Learning from a situation/mistake.

ð Not sure, didn’t give advice nor receive any I can think of other than hubby keeping on talking about me going back to work and telling me what he thinks I should be applying for.

Skat

8 of Hearts * – disinterest, detachment, friendship rather than romance

In a given situation, I might feel rather emotionally detached or uninvolved. Something that doesn’t feel too important to me or that I don’t feel emotionally very invested in.

ð Haven’t felt like playing much online lately. Not sure what’s going on, but I can’t quite get in the mood for it.

Kipper

8 Deceitful Person – deceit, lie, falsity, disguise, hidden agenda

Either I myself might not be utterly honest in a matter or someone else might not be telling me everything I feel I should/need to know. Something that has a hidden or questionable air about it. Not being aware of everything that’s going on.

ð Not sure. I know I’m getting slightly aggravated about hubby harping on me going back to work and telling me what jobs he thinks I need apply for. I kind of understand where he’s coming from, but he’s starting to get a little overbearing and pushy.

Zigeuner

House – house, home, building, private/domestic environment

Matters in/around the house might become more important today or require attention. Domestic/private matters that call for attention. Feeling at home or rooted in a matter or situation.

ð Did some chores around the house I’ve been slacking on past few days a bit that I need to tighten up on again.

Tarot

4 of Scepters * (4 of Wands)

Something unsettled or incomplete, feeling disappointed, lack of structure, instability. I might feel that something or someone is not jiving well with me today, feeling rather uneasy and restless. I might need to make sure that whatever I’m doing, I’m doing it slowly and with purpose, no rushing or lack of focus as it might cause tension and instability.

ð Mostly did not feel like playing my online games much. Played one for a bit … I feel like a restart is needed, but I still feel obligated towards my buddies for not just up and leaving. Makes me uncomfortable and insecure what to do. Otherwise, getting a tad irritated with hubby keeping on talking about me getting my driver’s license and then going back to work. He says he won’t push/force me into anything but *he* thinks that what I *need* to do as *he* thinks it would make me feel better. We talked about it before, and I don’t think I can get through to him how I feel on most days to start with. I do not think I can hold up to a job like he’s talking about similar to his with shift work. I’m struggling horribly as is with just staying up some longer when he’s on night shift … doing a full switch over like he does. It probably take me 4 days of getting somewhat acclimated to it and being pretty much in no mood to do nothing during that period. And, it reminds me painfully of my bodies apparent short coming and issues that no one has been able to figure out and help me with.

Daily Draw 01-08-2015

Daily Draw 01-08-2015

Small Lenormand

34 Fish – finances, money, subconscious, flow, liquid/alcohol, plenty

Money and/or financial situation might be a subject today. Going with the flow of events and how I and hubby are feeling.

Great Lenormand

2 of Spades – advice, secrets, acknowledging & learning from (life’s) lessons, change

It might be a good idea to heed someone’s advice or suggestion. Learning from a situation/mistake.

Skat

8 of Hearts * – disinterest, detachment, friendship rather than romance

In a given situation, I might feel rather emotionally detached or uninvolved. Something that doesn’t feel too important to me or that I don’t feel emotionally very invested in.

Kipper

8 Deceitful Person – deceit, lie, falsity, disguise, hidden agenda

Either I myself might not be utterly honest in a matter or someone else might not be telling me everything I feel I should/need to know. Something that has a hidden or questionable air about it. Not being aware of everything that’s going on.

Zigeuner

House – house, home, building, private/domestic environment

Matters in/around the house might become more important today or require attention. Domestic/private matters that call for attention. Feeling at home or rooted in a matter or situation.

Tarot

4 of Scepters * (4 of Wands)

Something unsettled or incomplete, feeling disappointed, lack of structure, instability. I might feel that something or someone is not jiving well with me today, feeling rather uneasy and restless. I might need to make sure that whatever I’m doing, I’m doing it slowly and with purpose, no rushing or lack of focus as it might cause tension and instability.

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Daily Draw 01-07-2015

Didn’t get a chance to draw, too busy

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Daily Draw 01-06-2015

Small Lenormand

8 Coffin – death, ending, standstill, pause, transformation

Something coming to an end or a standstill. Something that might be better ended or needs changing as it’s become detrimental and unhealthy. Letting go of something or someone. Putting something ‘behind’ me.

ð Got frustrated with lag, so I just quit online play, and played something offline.

Great Lenormand

Lady – female querent, woman, lover

Putting myself first or being careful not to get too egocentric in a matter. Something or someone that is very close/important to me on a very personal level. Soul searching and making sure I’m doing things for the right reason(s).

ð Not sure, felt a bit moody and frustrated with the Internet and the lag. Plus, past few days I’ve just not felt like playing online a lot.

Skat

8 of Spades – evening, visit, short trip/journey/duration/distance

Trips are not likely as hubby’s still working. Something that might last only a brief moment or is only for a short period of time important in some ways. A short-lived, brief/superficial matter. Something in/during the eventing.

ð Mostly played offline, took it easy most of the day. Nothing special in the evening other than chilling. Thought for a moment to go back online, but didn’t really feel like it, so I decided against it. Mother-in-law sent me another friend request on Facebook in the evening. Think she had to re-do it or something.

Kipper

9 Change – change, transformation

Something that is changing or going to change, whether I care for the change to take place or not, or something that I might need/want to change. Things that can’t keep on going the way they are. Need to re-think/re-consider something.

ð Past few days I’ve not felt much enthusiasm for online play. Doing a bit for a couple of hours, then log off and play an offline game. Feeling somewhat overtired, and lag spikes don’t make it better. And, frankly, sometimes, other players and their conduct just top off the frustration for me.

Zigeuner

Thought – thought, contemplation, introspection, patience

It might be a good idea to think matters through before acting. Something that requires some (more) consideration and contemplation. Not rushing into something without thinking it through first. Thinking before acting/talking.

ð Instead of getting too irritable with the online play that didn’t work well yesterday for some reason, kept having lag spikes, I decided to log off, and do something offline – played some offline, read some.

Tarot

World

Accomplishment, goal achieved, pinnacle, feeling whole/at peace, center of the ‘world’. Something that I deem important to me is being accomplished or attained. Feeling whole and centered within myself and life. Overall feeling of harmony and fulfillment. Things going well, reaching a pinnacle in a situation/matter.

ð Trying to figure out what to do with myself, and how to make the best out of things. Especially when my Internet was starting to show it’s butt again. Enjoy the online stuff, but at times, just not my thing when Internet acts up and other players get on my nerves. Trying to think of things to do to brighten hubby’s day. Found some inspirational pages on Facebook, I think I’ll be starting to post some of them that I like and hope he might find nice on his wall, and mother-in-laws.

Daily Draw 01-05-2015

Daily Draw 01-06-2015

Small Lenormand

8 Coffin – death, ending, standstill, pause, transformation

Something coming to an end or a standstill. Something that might be better ended or needs changing as it’s become detrimental and unhealthy. Letting go of something or someone. Putting something ‘behind’ me.

Great Lenormand

Lady – female querent, woman, lover

Putting myself first or being careful not to get too egocentric in a matter. Something or someone that is very close/important to me on a very personal level. Soul searching and making sure I’m doing things for the right reason(s).

Skat

8 of Spades – evening, visit, short trip/journey/duration/distance

Trips are not likely as hubby’s still working. Something that might last only a brief moment or is only for a short period of time important in some ways. A short-lived, brief/superficial matter. Something in/during the eventing.

Kipper

9 Change – change, transformation

Something that is changing or going to change, whether I care for the change to take place or not, or something that I might need/want to change. Things that can’t keep on going the way they are. Need to re-think/re-consider something.

Zigeuner

Thought – thought, contemplation, introspection, patience

It might be a good idea to think matters through before acting. Something that requires some (more) consideration and contemplation. Not rushing into something without thinking it through first. Thinking before acting/talking.

Tarot

World

Accomplishment, goal achieved, pinnacle, feeling whole/at peace, center of the ‘world’. Something that I deem important to me is being accomplished or attained. Feeling whole and centered within myself and life. Overall feeling of harmony and fulfillment. Things going well, reaching a pinnacle in a situation/matter.

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Daily Draw 01-05-2015

Small Lenormand

26 Book – secret, knowledge, information, hidden, literature, book

Knowledge or piece of information that might come in handy. Need to read up on something, or delve deeper into a matter as I don’t know enough about it just yet. Something hidden or secretive. Something that requires to be handled discretely.

ð Was approached by another player who made advances on me. I had to tell the poor boy it’s a no go. Also, hubby got his stuff in, but one item came with an additional item that lead him to think they messed the order up as he was confused why it was sent along. He already started balking and fussing over them having screwed out of money. I checked the product description, and sure enough, it stated that the item came with the additional items … so, they did fulfill the order correctly. Ought to say hubby had just woken up, so as he admits, he wasn’t thinking quite clearly and coherently either when he started fussing. Good thing I did check up on the order first before writing any emails that would’ve embarrassed the heck out of both of us.

Great Lenormand

Ace of Spades – questionable behavior/morals, perversion, excess, escapade; secret relations.

Something might irk me today as being of questionable nature. Something or someone who might be acting inappropriately – hopefully not I myself. Someone or something that is being secretive or raises an eyebrow or two.

ð Another player I’m in a guild in with made advances of sorts on me. Thought I could be his “girlfriend” or whatever in the game. Not only am I so not interested in that kind of stuff – not why I play games, guys – the poor boy could be literally my own son age-wise. Talking about awkward and then some. I logged off shortly after I had to tell him ‘no’, to check the mail. Didn’t log back in. It just felt too weird so I figured giving it a day ‘rest’ might do both of us good.

Skat

King of Clubs – man of/with authority, public figure, authority, knowledge

A man of/with authority or in a public standing of some sort might play a role today for me. Being in a position of authority. Seeking knowledge or gaining further knowledge in a matter.

ð Thinking, it was making sure that they did get the order right first, before going and emailing them. I’m glad I did double-check the information reading the product description or I would’ve felt rather stupid.

Kipper

28 Expectation – expectation, desire, longing, waiting

Waiting for something or someone. I know hubby’s been waiting on a delivery of several items he purchased before New Years, so, that might be it. Otherwise, looking forward to something, or anticipating something or someone.

ð Think it was mostly hubby really looking forward to his stuff.

Zigeuner

Sweetheart – woman, lover, female querent

I might need to take better care of myself than what I have been doing. Hadn’t felt well for three days.

ð Gave up trying to stay up past eleven-ish. Having the worst time with it. Start feeling seriously miserable, so, probably not gonna happen. Also, decided to not get irritated with some online stuff, logged off and played one of my offline games. Sometimes, that’s just the way to go for me.

Tarot

Queen of Grails * (Queen of Cups)

Emotionally upset or imbalanced, moody, aggravated, uncaring or over-bearing. Too close to the water. Lacking compassion and sympathy for something or someone. Might not feel very sympathetic towards something or someone today. My compassion might be at a low point. Not really caring about something or someone – feeling detached and disinterested, emotionally uninvested.

ð Felt emotionally overall ok, except for the weird incident between me and the other player when he was suggesting/hoping I might turn into his online girlfriend and had to shut him down … the other might be when hubby thought one of his orders had gotten messed up and he was missing something. Which then turned out, the order was fulfilled correctly – he had forgotten that the ‘extra’ was part of the deal he got yesterday, and not part of another order he had placed with the same seller on Amazon.

Daily Draw 01-05-2015

Daily Draw 01-05-2015

Small Lenormand

26 Book – secret, knowledge, information, hidden, literature, book

Knowledge or piece of information that might come in handy. Need to read up on something, or delve deeper into a matter as I don’t know enough about it just yet. Something hidden or secretive. Something that requires to be handled discretely.

Great Lenormand

Ace of Spades – questionable behavior/morals, perversion, excess, escapade; secret relations.

Something might irk me today as being of questionable nature. Something or someone who might be acting inappropriately – hopefully not I myself. Someone or something that is being secretive or raises an eyebrow or two.

Skat

King of Clubs – man of/with authority, public figure, authority, knowledge

A man of/with authority or in a public standing of some sort might play a role today for me. Being in a position of authority. Seeking knowledge or gaining further knowledge in a matter.

Kipper

28 Expectation – expectation, desire, longing, waiting

Waiting for something or someone. I know hubby’s been waiting on a delivery of several items he purchased before New Years, so, that might be it. Otherwise, looking forward to something, or anticipating something or someone.

Zigeuner

Sweetheart – woman, lover, female querent

I might need to take better care of myself than what I have been doing. Hadn’t felt well for three days.

Tarot

Queen of Grails * (Queen of Cups)

Emotionally upset or imbalanced, moody, aggravated, uncaring or over-bearing. Too close to the water. Lacking compassion and sympathy for something or someone. Might not feel very sympathetic towards something or someone today. My compassion might be at a low point. Not really caring about something or someone – feeling detached and disinterested, emotionally uninvested.

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Daily Draw 01-04-2015

Bad weather & didn’t feel good

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Daily Draw 01-03-2015

Small Lenormand

28 Gentleman – man, male questioner, husband, lover

Hubby or another man being or becoming focus/important today.

ð Not sure, hubby woke up earlier than necessarily. Wanted to download something for him but weather got so bad I had to give up on that idea.

Great Lenormand

8 of Diamonds – job, profession, task, proposition/suggestion

Might have a specific task or chore that requires my attention today or that I ought to tackle. Might receive a suggestion/proposition of some sort, or maybe make one.

ð Not sure. Had a technician from AT&T come and fix the phone line. Wanted to download a couple of things from YouTube for the hubby but that got canned when weather went FUBAR on me.

Skat

8 of Hearts * – disinterest, disconnection

Feeling emotionally detached or disinterested, overall “blah” and slightly irritable. Someone that might act nonchalant towards me.

ð Night shift always makes me feel “blah”. Couldn’t really get into much yesterday like I usually do.

Kipper

10 Journey – trip, journey, movement, change, departure

A trip or journey – none planned for today as hubby’s going back to work, so, unless in my mind not happening. Maybe considering changes.

ð Had to go with the flow of the day – or, better, with the flow of the weather. Terrible weather, limited me on what I could do in terms of online things. So I focused on the house and reading.

Zigeuner

Ecclesiastic – religion, belief, faith, spirituality

Faith might get tested today, or something requires some faith in order to get done. Looking within for answers and/or direction.

ð Felt rather solitary and solemn. Not necessarily depressed, but not exactly too happy and sunshiney either. Talked to my mom, and it didn’t improve my mood.

Tarot

Empress

Fertility, growth, fruition. Feeling creative and/or considering becoming creative in some ways. Female matters might be of importance for me today – taking care of myself, or making sure I’m ok.

ð Creative, not that I can think of. Just tried to make the best of my day with the limitations I was having imposed on my by the bad weather so most of my online activities were pretty much a no go. Talked to my mom which was so so. Her calls aren’t often what I’d call “brightening the mood” as she keeps talking about bad things that happened in the past, or some stuff that’s still going on. Like with my uncle. He started being distant when I was a teen, and yeah, he always struck me a bit boorish and rough, but I never figured him to be such a terrible jerk as he turned into the past few years. In a way, it’s a good thing I’m living that far away from him.

Daily Draw 01-03-2015

Daily Draw 01-03-2015

Small Lenormand

28 Gentleman – man, male questioner, husband, lover

Hubby or another man being or becoming focus/important today.

Great Lenormand

8 of Diamonds – job, profession, task, proposition/suggestion

Might have a specific task or chore that requires my attention today or that I ought to tackle. Might receive a suggestion/proposition of some sort, or maybe make one.

Skat

8 of Hearts * – disinterest, disconnection

Feeling emotionally detached or disinterested, overall “blah” and slightly irritable. Someone that might act nonchalant towards me.

Kipper

10 Journey – trip, journey, movement, change, departure

A trip or journey – none planned for today as hubby’s going back to work, so, unless in my mind not happening. Maybe considering changes.

Zigeuner

Ecclesiastic – religion, belief, faith, spirituality

Faith might get tested today, or something requires some faith in order to get done. Looking within for answers and/or direction.

Tarot

Empress

Fertility, growth, fruition. Feeling creative and/or considering becoming creative in some ways. Female matters might be of importance for me today – taking care of myself, or making sure I’m ok.

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Daily Draw 01-02-2015

Small Lenormand

25 Ring – relationship, circle, cycle, club/group, repetition

Either a relationship or group of people that plays a role today. Or feeling a bit like stuck in a rut.

ð Not entirely sure. Had a decent time online with a guild. Had a pretty good day with hubby except for a minor issue when we forgot to get the phone card for his mom, and I ran into problems doing it online.

Great Lenormand

Gentleman

Hubby might have something in particular today coming up, or he might need some extra attention.

ð He seemed to be in a bit of an irritated mood. Overall he was acting ok, but we hit a couple of road bumps, and he started to get snappy again at me.

Skat

7 of Clubs – illusion, tears, frustration

Might get frustrated and/or let-down by something or someone today. Need to try to remain down to earth and realistic, not let others irritate and/or frustrate me too easily, or get discouraged too quickly.

ð Thinking, this is the stupid phone card he wanted/needed to get for his mom. She had some kind of unexpected expenses and can’t afford to get more minutes for her Straight Talk. Forgot to get it at the store, so he was thinking of getting it online. But, when I tried, there was a problem with the payment not going through or something. Tried to contact the Live Support, but they couldn’t help me and I really did not feel like talking to them on the phone. Just irritating. Plus he was getting snappy with me because of it, so that didn’t help.

Kipper

29 Prison – confinement, prison, limitations, hindrances

Might be facing limitations and restrictions today of some sort. Being limited in what I can do, or should do. Might have to exercise restraint for the better.

ð Budget is tight this go around. Since he went on vacation, and no overtime, his paycheck this time wasn’t very large. Just glad I kept some from the last one to help out with this bill cycle or I might’ve been in a bind. So, overall, we’ll be rather limited on what we can afford to do – which is somewhat frustrating, but, oh well.

Zigeuner

Jealousy – jealousy, envy, conflict

Being jealous of someone else or someone else might be envying me something. What anyone would envy me, I don’t know. Overall, an air of unease and friction/tension.

ð Don’t think I was jealous of anyone. If someone else was of me, I don’t know of it.

Tarot

Ace of Knives * (Ace of Swords)

Confusion and/or misunderstanding. Inability to see or perceive something or someone clearly or objectively. I might have problems remaining objective and/or logical in a matter. Unable to find an answer or solution to a problem. I might feel rather confused and uncertain.

ð Just felt somewhat irritated and frustrated yesterday. Especially when I made the payment for the Straight Talk card, to refill his mom’s phone, and the payment status stated “incomplete”. I have no clue. Live Support didn’t/couldn’t help. Hubby’s temper was flaring up, just a mess. Feeling over tired with him going back to night shift, and it’s not improving my mood nor thinking process.

Daily Draw 01-02-2015

Daily Draw 01-02-2015

Small Lenormand

25 Ring – relationship, circle, cycle, club/group, repetition

Either a relationship or group of people that plays a role today. Or feeling a bit like stuck in a rut.

Great Lenormand

Gentleman

Hubby might have something in particular today coming up, or he might need some extra attention.

Skat

7 of Clubs – illusion, tears, frustration

Might get frustrated and/or let-down by something or someone today. Need to try to remain down to earth and realistic, not let others irritate and/or frustrate me too easily, or get discouraged too quickly.

Kipper

29 Prison – confinement, prison, limitations, hindrances

Might be facing limitations and restrictions today of some sort. Being limited in what I can do, or should do. Might have to exercise restraint for the better.

Zigeuner

Jealousy – jealousy, envy, conflict

Being jealous of someone else or someone else might be envying me something. What anyone would envy me, I don’t know. Overall, an air of unease and friction/tension.

Tarot

Ace of Knives * (Ace of Swords)

Confusion and/or misunderstanding. Inability to see or perceive something or someone clearly or objectively. I might have problems remaining objective and/or logical in a matter. Unable to find an answer or solution to a problem. I might feel rather confused and uncertain.

Daily Draw 01-01-2015

Small Lenormand

18 Dog – friend, friendship, loyalty, guard/attention

A friend or friendship might play a role today. Showing or being loyal to something or someone. On the other side, might be a good idea to pay attention and focus.

ð Hubby had an argument with an old friend of his. Old friend was complaining hubby supposedly never calls, never talks to him any more, hasn’t forever and a day etc etc. I know hubby tried. Watched him several times trying to call the friend and either friend didn’t pick up or was too busy with something/someone else to talk and ran him off the phone. They messaged back and forth a while, and it ended in pretty much hubby telling him off and not to contact him again until he gets his head straight.

Great Lenormand

King of Diamonds – home, romance, caring, good, trustworthy & honest person (man)

A man that is showing his affection or that might be important to me today. Matter of/around the house/home, domestic matters that should and might need to be addressed.

ð Me and hubby had a pretty good day together at home

Skat

Ace of Hearts * – outside of the home, external matters/influences, neighborhood, building/house

Something outside of the actual home – wonder if this might be the yard, or all together off the property, somewhere in the neighborhood or downtown. Hubby said he wanted to go make another run to the store … though I have my doubts much if anything is open today.

ð We went for a quick pit-stop to a local store and picked up a couple of things, went by McDonalds for breakfast as it was about the only thing open locally. It took forever to place the order. The cashier, I don’t know if she was being a jerk or hung over, or both, but she asked me 3 times whether I wanted my chicken grilled or crispy … then didn’t ring it up as a meal … it was a mess. Was about to get snappy with her, and hubby was about to blow a gasket.

Kipper

28 Expectation – longing, waiting, expectation, hopes

Either me or hubby might be anticipating something, or hoping for something. An air of expectation and longing for something. I know today hubby’s college football team is playing in the play-offs, and it will determine whether his team goes to the National Championship or not. So, while he claims that it’s not all that important him any more as it used to me, I do think he’s still hyped up for it.

ð His favorite team didn’t make it, though he really would’ve loved for them to win, of course. He has another team he favors a lot that was playing as well, and they won. So, not an utter ‘loss’, but I could tell hubby was disappointed his favorite team didn’t make.

Zigeuner

Love – love, romance, affection

And overall air or mood of caring and love. Showing that I care for something or something. Something, or someone, dear to me that might need more attention.

ð Was trying to make sure hubby has a nice day. Didn’t appreciate his old friend acting up and accusing him of neglecting him and whatever else under the sun. Not like he has been easy to get a hold off. Constantly new phone numbers, doesn’t answer the phone, has other things to do and runs hubby off the phone etc. etc. Then wants to make it out like hubby’s the ‘bad’ guy here, and the ‘bad’ friend. I don’t know. Hubby’s old friend has changed over the years, and not necessarily for the better. We’ve changed, too, to be fair. So, maybe our changes are not in line with the old friends changes. I don’t know. Just hated it put a damper on the day and that things went south between them.

Tarot

6 of Skulls (6 of Pentacles)

Fair give and take, sharing and not being stingy about helping someone out if they need help. Also, not being afraid to ask for help should I require any. Having plenty to go around and even spread the ‘wealth’ – whether that be necessarily financially/monetary, or by way of moral/physical support/aid.

ð Hubby had a fit with an old friend after the friend accused him of being a ‘bad’ friend, never calling, never talking to him any more when I know hubby tried numerous times to no avail. Or didn’t hear back from the friend for weeks, even months … just to get a message how ‘badly’ the friend all of the sudden had/wanted to talk to hubby and such. Just to go and not be available or run hubby off the phone, once more. So, hubby gave him a bit of his medicine, and told him what he thought of that kind of treatment in turn. Didn’t fare well. Otherwise, we chilled and relaxed. I wound up helping someone in one of my online games but, that’s about it.

Daily Draw 01-01-2015

Daily Draw 01-01-2015

Small Lenormand

18 Dog – friend, friendship, loyalty, guard/attention

A friend or friendship might play a role today. Showing or being loyal to something or someone. On the other side, might be a good idea to pay attention and focus.

Great Lenormand

King of Diamonds – home, romance, caring, good, trustworthy & honest person (man)

A man that is showing his affection or that might be important to me today. Matter of/around the house/home, domestic matters that should and might need to be addressed.

Skat

Ace of Hearts * – outside of the home, external matters/influences, neighborhood, building/house

Something outside of the actual home – wonder if this might be the yard, or all together off the property, somewhere in the neighborhood or downtown. Hubby said he wanted to go make another run to the store … though I have my doubts much if anything is open today.

Kipper

28 Expectation – longing, waiting, expectation, hopes

Either me or hubby might be anticipating something, or hoping for something. An air of expectation and longing for something. I know today hubby’s college football team is playing in the play-offs, and it will determine whether his team goes to the National Championship or not. So, while he claims that it’s not all that important him any more as it used to me, I do think he’s still hyped up for it.

Zigeuner

Love – love, romance, affection

And overall air or mood of caring and love. Showing that I care for something or something. Something, or someone, dear to me that might need more attention.

Tarot

6 of Skulls (6 of Pentacles)

Fair give and take, sharing and not being stingy about helping someone out if they need help. Also, not being afraid to ask for help should I require any. Having plenty to go around and even spread the ‘wealth’ – whether that be necessarily financially/monetary, or by way of moral/physical support/aid.

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Daily Draw 12-31-2014

Small Lenormand

34 Fish – money, finances, subconscious, liquid/alcohol, flow

Remaining smart with the money. Going with the flow of events.

ð Hubby got restless, was talking about going out after all. Then he reconsidered. Frustrating at times.

Great Lenormand

5 of Diamonds – acting before thinking, hast, inconsideration, pending disaster, stubbornness

Time to not be stubborn or act reckless as it might have some unpleasant consequences. Listening to advice and instructions so things won’t get out of hand but go smooth.

ð It’s difficult for me at times to figure out when I’m being a ‘klutz’ and too timid about doing something, or when it’s warranted caution. I felt somewhat like I was holding hubby back last night being too worried about me driving at night on New Years when I had just started driving not even a week ago and hadn’t been actually driving but roughly 3 times, on county roads mostly. Driving at night in a big city still freaks me out a bit. On the flip side, however, I could tell that he wouldn’t have mind going somewhere and ‘party’. I know he’s more outgoing and more of a ‘party animal’ than I am, and at times I feel like I’m asking too much of a sacrifice when I’m not sure I want to go out. Don’t want to go and get into another argument like we did a couple of years ago.

Skat

7 of Diamonds – unrest, stress, excitement

Might feel a bit stressed and/or frustrated about something. Trying to stay calm and centered could help and not getting wrapped up in a moment or issue.

ð Hubby and his attitude. He first said “no, not a good idea” about going out after all since I hadn’t been driving a lot and didn’t feel comfy yet doing it – especially not at night in a bigger city. But, I could tell a part of him wanted to. Felt so frustrated as I don’t want to make him feel he can’t have fun and let off some steam due to my timidity or hesitation. I so wish he could finally find him a good, decent friend that he could do that with. Not to shove him off to another person, but I think it would do him good to go out and have a ‘guy’s night’ out once every so often.

Kipper

14 Sad news – messages, news, usually not always the best nor most pleasant

Hearing about something unpleasant or having to break unpleasant news to someone else. Something that might dampen the spirits a bit.

ð Sad news as such, no. Felt down, though, as I got the impression I was putting a damper on hubby’s good mood and fun time bringing in the new year by being reluctant to go and drive that night. Plus, he made a comment or two that hit home with me, and rather depressed me.

Zigeuner

Widower – loneliness, separation, withdrawal

Feeling of being isolated and/or being left out of something. A mood of withdrawal and not feeling too social today.

ð I felt ok most of the day until hubby decided to go and start fireworks. He made some comments and remarks that depressed me, and I was worried we’d be headed for yet another fight. Tried to put on a brave face and not let him know that his comments hurt me, but, there are just some things that make me feel very insecure and like I’m hindering him from being as happy as he could, and should, be. I wonder at times if he’d not be happier without me.

Tarot

Prince of Grails (Knight of Cups)

Feeling a bit emotional and getting swamped up in emotions if I’m not careful. Feeling inspired and motivated to pursue a dream or vision. Might feel excited and enthusiastic about something. Being creative and following my intuition.

ð This card seems to frequently show up when I’m having a mood swing, or my emotions are somewhat unsteady and all over the place. Over-emotional might fit the bill. In any event, things were good, then went down the dumps for me for a bit, brightened somewhat again. Overall, however, I don’t know. This New Year’s Eve was not the most ‘fun’ or ‘happy’ I’ve ever had. Went into it with mixed feelings, and I just hope I can live up to the expectations hubby’s got for me, apparently.

Daily Draw 12-31-2014

Daily Draw 12-31-2014

Small Lenormand

34 Fish – money, finances, subconscious, liquid/alcohol, flow

Remaining smart with the money. Going with the flow of events.

Great Lenormand

5 of Diamonds – acting before thinking, hast, inconsideration, pending disaster, stubbornness

Time to not be stubborn or act reckless as it might have some unpleasant consequences. Listening to advice and instructions so things won’t get out of hand but go smooth.

Skat

7 of Diamonds – unrest, stress, excitement

Might feel a bit stressed and/or frustrated about something. Trying to stay calm and centered could help and not getting wrapped up in a moment or issue.

Kipper

14 Sad news – messages, news, usually not always the best nor most pleasant

Hearing about something unpleasant or having to break unpleasant news to someone else. Something that might dampen the spirits a bit.

Zigeuner

Widower – loneliness, separation, withdrawal

Feeling of being isolated and/or being left out of something. A mood of withdrawal and not feeling too social today.

Tarot

Prince of Grails (Knight of Cups)

Feeling a bit emotional and getting swamped up in emotions if I’m not careful. Feeling inspired and motivated to pursue a dream or vision. Might feel excited and enthusiastic about something. Being creative and following my intuition.

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Daily Draw 12-30-2014

Small Lenormand

34 Fish – money, finances, subconscious, flowing, liquid/alcohol

For one, making sound financial decisions, being careful with how I/we spend money today. Also, overall might be a good idea to do a budget check. Besides that, I might just need to go with the flow of the day, and relax.

ð Initially, we wanted to go watch the upcoming college football play-offs at a place downtown, but since I haven’t been driving a lot yet, and the game being in the evening/night time, we decided it probably isn’t the best idea and to not only bring in the New Year but also watch the game at home. Plus, so hubby reasoned, instead of blowing that money in a bar drinking and eating, go and invest it.

Great Lenormand

6 of Diamonds – deception, corruption, hypocrisy, enemy, adversity.

Someone or something detrimental that I might not be able to ‘see’ initially. Someone or something playing tricks on me in some ways, trying to fool or deceive me. Or I might be the one not being entirely straight in a matter. Being cautious that not everything is quite what it might seem to be at first sight today.

ð Not sure, ran into a situation when I came home in a guild where a member apparently misbehaved. Otherwise, I hope that one of the current candidates for the other factions guild is not going to wind up the new guild master. I just don’t get a warm fuzzy feel from the guy as being in charge of a guild. It’s the same person I ran into some minor issues with. As nice and fun as they are, frankly, I’m not sure they’re suited for it.

Skat

7 of Hearts * – secret, hidden, flirt, affair

I might be keeping something from someone today or feel someone’s not telling me the whole story. Either way, I might get the impression I’m lacking insight/information.

ð We were a bit unsure how to bring in New Years. Been wanting to go to a local light show on New Years Eve day, but weather got too cold and funky so we nixed that idea. Otherwise, not sure what this might refer to other than the guild situation with the guild member as well as the vote on guild master.

Kipper

31 Short illness – something wrong, illness, disease, exhaustion

A feeling of exhaustion and that something is just not quite right – either with myself, someone else or a situation. Trying to figure out how to remedy/cure/improve a situation that isn’t working well or detrimental.

ð Didn’t sleep best, got woke up too early by the cats yesterday and felt somewhat groggy and tired all day. Hubby had a minor incident that fortunately passed quickly. Gave me a scare for a second.

Zigeuner

Enemy – an enemy, adversity, obstacle, negativity

I might have to face at least one obstacle or issue today that might be rather unpleasant. Being careful not to succumb to negativity and keep a positive attitude. Might have to make sure that I’m not becoming the ‘problem’ in a situation. But also beware that there might be something or someone that’s working against me.

ð Again, not sure. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude and have confidence in myself now that I’m actually driving, but at times, I feel stressed out. Hubby says it’s normal and will pass with time and experience. I hope. Right now I feel more like a nervous wreck than anything else. Alas, we haven’t crashed yet, so I take that as a good sign.

Tarot

7 of Grails * (7 of Cups) – disappointment, disillusion, dashed hopes

Not everything is likely to work out as I hope for today. There might be some minor disappointments and/or let downs ahead. I might need to re-adjust my ideas and/or goals in a matter, make sure it’s realistic, and try to focus on one or two matters at a time instead of too many at once.

ð Was hoping we’d be able to catch the one light show before the event ends, but, weather done got too cold and funky and we decided to wait till next year to do it. Didn’t really want to, but somehow our little trip to the vet to drop the two tomcats off to get fixed turned into an almost all-day event going to town. Was fun, yes, but not quite how I had my day planned out initially when I got up.

Daily Draw 12-30-2014

Daily Draw

Small Lenormand

34 Fish – money, finances, subconscious, flowing, liquid/alcohol

For one, making sound financial decisions, being careful with how I/we spend money today. Also, overall might be a good idea to do a budget check. Besides that, I might just need to go with the flow of the day, and relax.

Great Lenormand

6 of Diamonds – deception, corruption, hypocrisy, enemy, adversity.

Someone or something detrimental that I might not be able to ‘see’ initially. Someone or something playing tricks on me in some ways, trying to fool or deceive me. Or I might be the one not being entirely straight in a matter. Being cautious that not everything is quite what it might seem to be at first sight today.

Skat

7 of Hearts * – secret, hidden, flirt, affair

I might be keeping something from someone today or feel someone’s not telling me the whole story. Either way, I might get the impression I’m lacking insight/information.

Kipper

31 Short illness – something wrong, illness, disease, exhaustion

A feeling of exhaustion and that something is just not quite right – either with myself, someone else or a situation. Trying to figure out how to remedy/cure/improve a situation that isn’t working well or detrimental.

Zigeuner

Enemy – an enemy, adversity, obstacle, negativity

I might have to face at least one obstacle or issue today that might be rather unpleasant. Being careful not to succumb to negativity and keep a positive attitude. Might have to make sure that I’m not becoming the ‘problem’ in a situation. But also beware that there might be something or someone that’s working against me.

Tarot

7 of Grails * (7 of Cups) – disappointment, disillusion, dashed hopes

Not everything is likely to work out as I hope for today. There might be some minor disappointments and/or let downs ahead. I might need to re-adjust my ideas and/or goals in a matter, make sure it’s realistic, and try to focus on one or two matters at a time instead of too many at once.

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Daily Draw 12/29/2014

Small Lenormand

3 Ship – travel, journey, dreams, longings, foreign/abroad

Either making a trip today, which I think isn’t quite as likely since hubby’s gonna be rather tired coming from work tonight after his 4 days at work. Maybe a short trip to the store, but, that’s a *maybe* unlike he gets a spunky feel. Otherwise, something set in motion or something I long for to take place.

ð No trip last night, but hubby initially was saying he wanted to go to town today, then changed his mind, however. We still have to get the tomcats to the vet so they can get fixed. We talked about that briefly.

Great Lenormand

4 of Clubs – vanity, dependency, passions; self-confidence

Having to be careful of moods and not letting someone else dictate how things go for me. If I feel somewhat moody and bitchy today, might be a good idea to get a grip on that before I lash out at someone without reason. Otherwise, being strong willed and confident enough to voice my opinion and stand up for myself as well as maybe educating myself on something (or being educated on something).

ð I discussed something with another person regarding one of my games. Another player that while I don’t dislike that person, was causing me a bit of trepidations. Wasn’t sure how to handle it and figured I’d run it by the guildmaster to see how he felt about it. Was just tired of not wanting to sign in to the game just because I was not feeling like running into that other player that’s been giving me a bit of a headache. Situation has been resolved, so, I’m glad I decided to go ahead and take the plunge addressing it.

Skat

Jack of Spades – lies, deceit, betrayal

Might run afoul of a somewhat negative and/or unpleasant situation/incident. Something or someone might feel funky and like they’re not being utterly upright with me – or I might be the one not being as honest as I should/need to be in a matter. Might not be the time too trusting but also not a time to let others be rude towards me.

ð Nothing serious I can think of. I was just feeling unsure how to handle the matter with the other player. I like them in general, but their actions lately have been irritating me, to say the least, and I did not want to get to the point where I stop playing, leave the guild, or have an argument with that player. Figured, put it on the table and see what guild master has to say how to handle it.

Kipper

10 – Death – ending, standstill, pause, transformation

Something coming to an end, reaching the end of a cycle and trying to find closure in a matter. Something that might *have* to end as it’s counterproductive and not helping. It might be a good idea to refrain from getting involved in anything new just yet, finish up some things first or just to take a break, take it slow and try to replenish energies if need be.

ð Wanted to put that one issue I had with the other player to rest, mostly. And, I accomplished that.

Zigeuner

Merritment – happiness, joy, festivity, social matter/event

Something enjoyable and happy taking place. Maybe others might be involved. Others bringing joy to my life, or I might bring joy to theirs. Overall, a pleasant, upbeat atmosphere and just having some fun.

ð I was taken by surprise when I was promoted in that guild yesterday. Did not see that one coming. And I wasn’t even trying to get promoted. So, while a nice surprise, I suppose, to many, I was a bit puzzled. How do I manage to do that? Not vying for an officer position, and I wind up in one even if I don’t really try. Just wanting to help out, and *bam*. I might need to stop being helpful.

Tarot

7 Chariot – victory, motivation, determination

Today might be a good day to pick a goal and then go for it. Use my energy and determination in a focused way, instead of chasing too many things at once and getting nothing but frustrated and exhausted. Also, I might be able to accomplish a goal today I set myself. Point might be “what do you want, and how bad do you want?” – not shying away from confrontation if it’s called for, and being firm in my position (within reason, unfounded stubbornness isn’t going to help).

ð Think for once me tackling the matter that was on my mind for the most part in the morning, at least, getting the situation squared away regarding that other player that was starting to irritate me and make me not want to log in again for a while. Yes, avoidance issues were kicking in. I do like the rest of the guild, and for the most part, that player as well, so I didn’t want to get to that point where I either just simply not log into the guild any more for a while, possibly get kicked due to inactivity or leave altogether on my own. So I discussed it with the guildmaster and a solution was found. The other part is that I finally got my lazy four letters off the chair and managed to do a work out again. For a moment I wasn’t sure I’d be able to do the whole program, but I pulled it off.

Daily Draw 12/29/2014

Daily Draw 12/29/2014

Small Lenormand

3 Ship – travel, journey, dreams, longings, foreign/abroad

Either making a trip today, which I think isn’t quite as likely since hubby’s gonna be rather tired coming from work tonight after his 4 days at work. Maybe a short trip to the store, but, that’s a *maybe* unlike he gets a spunky feel. Otherwise, something set in motion or something I long for to take place.

Great Lenormand

4 of Clubs – vanity, dependency, passions; self-confidence

Having to be careful of moods and not letting someone else dictate how things go for me. If I feel somewhat moody and bitchy today, might be a good idea to get a grip on that before I lash out at someone without reason. Otherwise, being strong willed and confident enough to voice my opinion and stand up for myself as well as maybe educating myself on something (or being educated on something).

Skat

Jack of Spades – lies, deceit, betrayal

Might run afoul of a somewhat negative and/or unpleasant situation/incident. Something or someone might feel funky and like they’re not being utterly upright with me – or I might be the one not being as honest as I should/need to be in a matter. Might not be the time too trusting but also not a time to let others be rude towards me.

Kipper

10 – Death – ending, standstill, pause, transformation

Something coming to an end, reaching the end of a cycle and trying to find closure in a matter. Something that might *have* to end as it’s counterproductive and not helping. It might be a good idea to refrain from getting involved in anything new just yet, finish up some things first or just to take a break, take it slow and try to replenish energies if need be.

Zigeuner

Merritment – happiness, joy, festivity, social matter/event

Something enjoyable and happy taking place. Maybe others might be involved. Others bringing joy to my life, or I might bring joy to theirs. Overall, a pleasant, upbeat atmosphere and just having some fun.

Tarot

7 Chariot – victory, motivation, determination

Today might be a good day to pick a goal and then go for it. Use my energy and determination in a focused way, instead of chasing too many things at once and getting nothing but frustrated and exhausted. Also, I might be able to accomplish a goal today I set myself. Point might be “what do you want, and how bad do you want?” – not shying away from confrontation if it’s called for, and being firm in my position (within reason, unfounded stubbornness isn’t going to help).